Me, Food and I

Me, Food and I


I got my lunch, saw Diana and sat next to her. Claire bumped into me and said, oh sorry, I need to sit next to Diana. So I moved down. Then Stephanie bumped into me and said, Oh, I need to sit next to Claire. Then Amy… then ugh… I just got up and went all the way to the end of the table. When I sit by myself at lunch, I would close my eyes and find comfort in the cacophony. I then try to pinpoint conversations. And when I hear someone talking about the strategies of dodge ball, I’m glad I sit by myself. Whenever they have grilled cheese, mac and cheese, ricotta stuffed shells, and peanut butter and jelly, I would starve. I hate dairy… and I guess gooey things? My favorite movie is The Little Mermaid I think only because I want to eat everything in that movie. The food that I love and is afraid to admit to is the green stuff inside lobster heads. I see kids bringing bagged lunch to school and it was so cool that they got to learn the trading process. But I always had the free hot lunches. I never understood that Lunchables were pretty pricey for my parents. There was free pizza after school. Usually I would be pretty full with a slice and a half, but something about “free” made me want to eat more. I ate 3 slices. And from that day on, I always ate 3 slices whenever there was free pizza. My friends and I were at a Chinese restaurant, they wanted me to order in Chinese. I was nervous, but I can do it. The waiter didn’t understand anything I said… because he spoke Mandarin and I speak Cantonese. My friends didn’t understand that there are different dialects and just thought I didn’t know any Chinese. And the waiter thought I was just another dumb American. I picked Diana and Julia to help me with cupcakes on my birthday. I wanted to pick Diana because she was so cool. I picked Julia because she was not as cool but my probability of getting picked back for her birthday is very high. Then Julia’s birthday came. I waited. I didn’t want to be desperate. Then lunch time came and she still didn’t say anything. So I said, “Hey, who are you going to pick to pass out cupcakes?” “Diana and Stephanie.” “What?” “They asked me.” “They didn’t pick you for theirs, I picked you!” “Well, they asked me first.” “And also, it’s doughnuts.” I always secretly wanted someone to make the effort to sit next to me and chat with me And one day, someone did. They said hi to me, and I couldn’t say anything. “My favorite food is pizza, what’s yours?” I looked down at my instant mashed potatoes. They asked one more time. I wanted to say thank you for coming over but something was holding me back. Then they smiled at me and walked away. One of the saddest day of my life was when McDonald’s announced that they will only have white meat chicken mcnuggets. I love that sweet, sweet dark meat. ::weird noise:: I love putting beans on my hot dog, other kids think it’s gross. I’m scared of being made fun of, I’m scared of being laughed at, but not when it comes to food. When I’m eating, it’s the only time I don’t care how I look. I always wondered, if I purposely sat alone because it was too hard. It was too hard to make friends. I was so shy. And I needed that extra patience. that extra kindness, I needed someone to say “are you okay?” 10 times before I can even say one word. So, thank you. Thank you for sitting next to me. And oh, my favorite food is lobster brains.